While the Cat is Away…

…The mouse will try super hard to make progress to impress the cat when he returns!

Sad news everyone: people die. I’ve gone a long time without having to really think about that, except for when a beloved pet would pass, and honestly I’m still not really thinking about it because it freaks me out and there is no comfort. But I ought to be thinking about it. For one thing, a gentle, poetic fellow I slightly knew has been murdered senselessly on the street, and for another, my husband’s grandfather appears to be on the brink. I feel like a cold bitch because I’m not as upset about either thing as I feel I should be. It all feels far away and incomprehensible. I’m worried about my husband and how he feels, but I don’t seem to emotionally understand that I’ve lost the chance to meet one of the people who raised him and cared for him and who is important to him. I feel I should be more affected.

But since I’m not, I won’t bother you with it. What you do need to know is that my husband left for Kenya today, to be with his family. He has a one way ticket. He will be coming back, but we have no idea when. I’d hazard a guess that he won’t come back in less than a month, which means…

…I have some time to be a surprise when he gets back! I think I might be able to make a visible difference in my body in that time, what do you think? I’m going to try. He’s observant, so if I manage it, I think he will notice. It’s an idea I came up with when I was wondering how best to support my husband in this difficult time. I decided that what I can do is make his return to the states, whenever it happens, as joyful as possible by developing good habits while he’s away. I also want to study a little Swahili.

A before pic of the body in the room

So now I’m going to set some goals.

  1. Lose 2 lbs a week. In a month I should be at 243 lbs
  2. Be consistent going to Bikram every weekday morning
  3. Go to the gym or personal training 5 times a week (because of the bet) and lift heavier weights by the end of the month
  4. Learn how to keep our room clean and organized. He’s a tidy sort, but somehow my disorderly nature wins when it comes to how the room looks
  5. Practice Swahili flashcards every day
  6. Maybe learn to do something pretty with my hair?

If he’s gone more than a month, I’ll miss him for longer, but I’ll be glad of the chance to make even more difference. I know it’s not healthy, but sometimes I feel like I’m not a good enough wife. Well, if that’s really how I feel, this is a chance to do something about it!

What would you do if you had a month to set up a surprise for someone you love/want to impress?

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6 thoughts on “While the Cat is Away…

  1. Hi there! I thought you had given up blogging! Im also just starting on a journey, but not one I blogging about. I’d be happy to talk about it in comments here, though! I’m trying to quit smoking – and by association not drinking as much as the pair go hand in hand (and I quite enjoy both, dammit). Of course the extra bit will be not getting any fatter myself, or maybe less beer will reduce the reserves?
    Perhaps we can support one another (but I know nothing about hair, hehe)?
    I’m sorry your husband has to be gone for an indeterminate time. You clearly love him very much. I’m doing my changes for myself – and as I said not broadcasting it, maybe due to fear or expectation of failure…

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    1. I’ve got a lot of fear of failure to, since that’s what my track record holds. I’m trying to just take it one day at a time. And I would love to form some sort of supportive relationship with you, even if you can’t fix my hair!

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      1. One day at a time is perfect 🙂 What did you do today toward a goal?
        I went four hours (awake, even!) without a smoke, so I’m happy about that. I’ll make it up later probably! Changing routine seems to help me.

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