…The mouse will try super hard to make progress to impress the cat when he returns!
Sad news everyone: people die. I’ve gone a long time without having to really think about that, except for when a beloved pet would pass, and honestly I’m still not really thinking about it because it freaks me out and there is no comfort. But I ought to be thinking about it. For one thing, a gentle, poetic fellow I slightly knew has been murdered senselessly on the street, and for another, my husband’s grandfather appears to be on the brink. I feel like a cold bitch because I’m not as upset about either thing as I feel I should be. It all feels far away and incomprehensible. I’m worried about my husband and how he feels, but I don’t seem to emotionally understand that I’ve lost the chance to meet one of the people who raised him and cared for him and who is important to him. I feel I should be more affected.
But since I’m not, I won’t bother you with it. What you do need to know is that my husband left for Kenya today, to be with his family. He has a one way ticket. He will be coming back, but we have no idea when. I’d hazard a guess that he won’t come back in less than a month, which means…
…I have some time to be a surprise when he gets back! I think I might be able to make a visible difference in my body in that time, what do you think? I’m going to try. He’s observant, so if I manage it, I think he will notice. It’s an idea I came up with when I was wondering how best to support my husband in this difficult time. I decided that what I can do is make his return to the states, whenever it happens, as joyful as possible by developing good habits while he’s away. I also want to study a little Swahili.
So now I’m going to set some goals.
Lose 2 lbs a week. In a month I should be at 243 lbs
Be consistent going to Bikram every weekday morning
Go to the gym or personal training 5 times a week (because of the bet) and lift heavier weights by the end of the month
Learn how to keep our room clean and organized. He’s a tidy sort, but somehow my disorderly nature wins when it comes to how the room looks
Practice Swahili flashcards every day
Maybe learn to do something pretty with my hair?
If he’s gone more than a month, I’ll miss him for longer, but I’ll be glad of the chance to make even more difference. I know it’s not healthy, but sometimes I feel like I’m not a good enough wife. Well, if that’s really how I feel, this is a chance to do something about it!
What would you do if you had a month to set up a surprise for someone you love/want to impress?
Today I woke up at 4 am, just in time to see my husband stop studying and come to bed. I tried not to wake him, but I had no intention of sleeping. Instead, I came up with a plan for the morning, which I wrote out while he slept. I would get up and dressed at 5:30, head to the garage and do yoga. I’ve found a podcast (from yogadownload.com) that talks me through yoga flows. I recommend it as more portable than a video, and since, when you’re moving around like that, you can’t easily watch a video anyway. I would then go for a walk to watch the sun rise, and maybe a run.
And that’s what I did (except I didn’t run because it’s too hilly. I’m considering going to my usual running place later today). While it was a bit of a struggle, and I didn’t finish the whole series of sun salutations, it felt really nice to have done yoga first thing. I stopped mostly because I didn’t want to miss the sunrise. At first the arrangement of clouds looked goofy, especially in that florescent coral color. I was able to get to the top of the hill in plenty of time to see the first rays of sunlight. I took tons of picture, most of which I’ll spare you from since they are pretty similar. Then suddenly I noticed that the morning sun was making me feel pretty! So I took some selfies. In most of them I look disgruntled because the sun was blinding me, but I managed to get one picture of myself that I can share. My hair had been in braid all night and I hadn’t yet bothered to brush it, so I had to shove it all to one side.
I saw two really large birds that I think might have been red tailed hawks, and I saw either three coyotes or one coyote three times. All in all, I would say that my experimental morning walk was a great success, and I hope I will continue to be tough enough to say goodbye to bed sheets and hello to sunshine and exercise.
My weight persists in remaining at 250 lbs. Some things are inevitable though, and I’m not bothered that my scale isn’t keeping up with the changes in the person that I am. I had a breakfast of oatmeal, pecans, peach, banana and raspberries, amounts in accordance with the 21 day fix plan. I have yet to try any of the 21 day fix workouts, since I am so happy with running (or extra slow jogging, as the case may be) and elliptical right now. What I need to start doing is start working my arms and strengthening my core. I’m also starting to try the social feature on Lose it, just to see what it’s like. So far so good. People seem to respond to comments pretty quick, although I see no opportunity for private chatting.
Update: I was also out walking as the sun went down